Tag: life

I Wish I didn’t Know

I wish I didn’t know…

that one day every living thing must one day go

back to the dust from which it came.

I wish I didn’t know…

that sometimes people don’t get healed

and pain unleashed reveals itself in an avalanche of tears.

I wish I didn’t know…

That cancer is a monster and not just a sign of the zodiac

it doesn’t respect persons old or young and runs you ragged and tortures you before it’s done.

I wish I didn’t know…

friendships don’t always last until you grow old

sometimes death severs it’s hold.

I wish I didn’t know…

Life will give you bitter with the sweet

and bad things sometimes happens to the good folks you meet.

I wish I didn’t know…

That grief can last forever, it’s coping mechanisms that change

When you lose someone you love,

life is never quite the same.

I wish I didn’t know.

~micaiah

How much do you love you?

A lot of us are great at being honest with everyone but ourselves. We will scream and shout how much we love ourselves and refuse to settle when it comes to how someone else may treat us, but we forget to demand that same level from ourselves.

If you truly love yourself, you’ll work towards being the best version of yourself in every aspect of your life: physically, spiritually, emotionally, mentally and financially.

How much love do you have for yourself if you aren’t working to be the healthiest version of you that you can be? We psych ourselves into believing we have to be in love with our fat selves and our thick thighs, but if that isn’t the healthiest version of you, how is it love? You can be comfortable in who you are, and still recognize your need for improvement.

You tell yourself you can’t be with anyone that has nothing to bring to the table, when your table is being held up by one leg made of bills and debts you owe. Yeah, you have a nice career, but you owe out more than you make. By refusing to get a handle on your debt not only are you not showing love to yourself, but you’re not showing love to the children to whom you’ll leave your debts instead of an inheritance.

We have to be honest with ourselves and admit when we don’t love ourselves as much as we should.

Self-reflection is necessary in order for there to be growth.

Love yourself enough to want the best for yourself and your family in all areas of your life.

If you feel like the blessings aren’t coming, maybe it’s because you need to rid your life of the cluttered chaos in it.

Take inventory and then make a list of steps you can take to clean up the areas in your life that do not represent the love you have for yourself.

Take it one step at a time and don’t be afraid to ask for help in areas where you need it.

You are most definitely worth your best efforts.

Remember love is an action word and that applies even more-so when it refers to how you truly show love for you!

~Micaiahism

More Powerful than you Know

Sometimes it’s hard to inspire when you feel as if you’re floundering at life and your pockets are not filling fast enough.

But then again, those moments of uncertainty that turn out alright are what leads to inspiring moments and testimonies.

It’s easy to give up. To say, well it must not be my time since dreams aren’t aligning with finances.

Finances, or shall I say, the lack thereof, is a major stressor. Businesses and marriages have come to destruction over it.

But we can’t lose sight that sometimes riches aren’t monetary and sometimes blessings can’t be measured. 

Peace of mind and joy of heart are priceless. Doing something that fulfills you is invaluable to your self-worth, and shouldn’t be quantified on the basis of a dollar. 

That budget is meant to discipline you not confine or define your limits.

Sometimes you have to acknowledge that what you want is surpassing what you need.

We have to place things in perspective and understand that sometimes the only thing standing in your way of pursuing your dreams is being greedy for gain and forgetting to be thankful for more than enough.

Sometimes we have to be reminded that your dreams may be the life saving force someone else has been waiting for.

That book, that business, that apparel line may be the boost someone needs to be reminded that they too can realize their dreams.

That it’s never too late to pursue your purpose.

Don’t give up, you’re richer than you realize and more powerful than you know!

 ~Micaiah

Adrift and bereft

I haven’t written in a while. I was transitioning in my feelings from numb to grieving, once again death called a friend home and left me feeling adrift and bereft. Untethered just floating in a sea of feelings and unleashed emotions

Death is hard, but unexpected death, one not a result of some chronic or terminal illness is even harder; especially when it’s a best friend. A confidante and kindred spirit, someone that you laughingly joked about growing old with. It was surreal seeing her lifeless and so still. She had always been so lively and full of life. Her Aura would bring light to any room, but death robbed the world of her presence.

I’m a spiritual being so I know all souls belong to the Creator and are only on a short loan to those of us that live in this earthly world. Even knowing and understanding her latter end doesn’t make the pain any less intense.

Witnessing another mother bury her child is something I dread each and every time, because by nature I’m an empath and I feel things deeply and knowing I can do nothing to repair the hole left is gut wrenching. Of course I can offer help and sympathy but those things don’t touch that feeling that resides deep in one’s soul when they suffer the loss of someone close to them. I can’t begin to imagine what it feels like for a mother to lose the very person that grew inside her womb.

The older I get it seems the more prayers and condolences I extend, and yet the world keeps turning and days continue into night. And although death changes the world of those effected, the rest of the world goes on. And although at times you wish you could curl up in a ball and just forget about everything and everyone else, you can’t, because you still have life within you.

And because you inherently know you have a responsibility to keep the memory and love of the deceased alive. So you surf the waves of your grief, you allow yourself to feel, but you fight to keep your head above water because you don’t want to purposely hasten your own demise and be the cause of someone’s else’s grief.

The circle of life keeps turning much like the earth. We latch on to friends and family and every golden memory we can in an effort to establish a new normal.

That’s where I find myself, trying to find my new normal, without one of my best friend’s advice and input, one without her notes left in my library books on the hold shelf. A life that is without her text messages full of inside jokes and one that is without her book nerd humor and shared favorite authors and titles. One without her voice and knowing they’ll be no new songs sung it’s all still so hard to comprehend.

But I know she would push me forward and want me to accomplish all the goals and dreams we had discussed. She’d want to see me smile and laugh and enjoy life fully. So some way somehow I will, because to keep a smile on my face and joy in my heart may just be one of the best ways to remember her.

Missing you and loving you forever my friend

In Loving Memory of Hilakiyah Yisrael 3/10/1970-5/5/2019

~Micaiah

Boundless Visions: Unleashing the limitations in your mind

The science of mind is our ability to change our lives with the changing of our mindset. Words and thoughts hold power and we have the power to self-sabotage our happiness when we put unhealthy vibrations in the universe.

Sometimes we expect failure, although we put on the facade of believing in forever.

When we think failure, we do things without full effort and without full effort relationships become burdensome and disintegrate.  When we want success, we must think successfully. Affirm that what you want is what you will have. Claim it as truth and being present already. 

Energy is movement so when you focus your thoughts on positive things the universe works to place those things in motion for your good. But you must work towards them. Words without actions are dead.

Make your goals visible, this is one reason why vision boards are so powerful. They make goals real, tangible and obtainable. A visual reminder of where you need to focus your time and energy. They can be revised, as we reach new levels in self- awareness our goals and aspirations may change and that is an awesome and freeing thing.

The only limits in your life are the ones you set.

So, let your limits be boundless.

Speak and claim positivity and abundance in and on your life; invest in and sponsor your dreams. 

Voice your victories and speak prosperity into your life.

You have the power to live your best life.

No more fear, no more doubts, no more excuses.

Just do it!

~Micaiah

Next lifetime

You ever had someone speak to your very soul,

they looked into your eyes and your very thoughts they’d know?  


With just a mention of their name they send your heart a flutter,


and they make you feel inspired but  at the same time so nervous you stutter?


Someone who stimulates your mind,
taking intelligent and sexy to a whole different level and time,


but the sad part about it, it’s not the right time


For me to be yours and for you to be mine


and inherently you know
No matter how perfectly the stars seemed to align


you have to put off this soul connection
until the next lifetime.

~micaiah

Owning it

Since today marks the beginning of a new year by date, I’ve decided to write about owning up to your responsibilities and flaws. It doesn’t matter how many resolutions you make if you aren’t honest with and about yourself. You have to be able to look yourself in the mirror and understand that everything in your life is a direct result of either your actions or your inaction.

It’s true that as a man or woman thinketh so is he or she. If you think that you can’t go far in life due to all the set backs you may have encountered or due to being born into poverty and dysfunction, then 9 times out of 10 you won’t. You have to work towards what you want and you have to be committed to that vision mind, body and spirit. When you refuse to own the issues in your life, you take the responsibility away from yourself on how to solve and resolve them. You become a victim to your circumstances and allow others to determine your path, which is a definite no-no.

No one is perfect and even lives that may appear that way are generally far from it. Everyone has a backstory so to speak, a springing forth from the ashes moment. The difference is how you handle the backstory, do you hide it or do you use it as a tool to tell others your story and to motivate you into making new and improved changes in your life? Adults that choose to place their head in the sand and ignore their own part in the present state of their lives shouldn’t be surprised when they lack sympathy from others.

Life is 100% how you make it and adversity is how you take it. You have to start with the man or woman in the mirror and be the change you seek.

It’s your life, good, bad, or indifferent, Own IT!
~micaiah

Free to fly

Would you jump out of a plane without a parachute?

Well maybe you would if you knew you could fly!

The scary part is figuring out the unknown, but that’s also the adventure.

So many of us are leading safe lives. Safe, however, doesn’t always equal fulfilling. Whether we chose the safe mate or the safe job versus the relationship or career that would have required some time, focus and effort. The thing about safe is, it often lacks passion and over time we lose interest.

Which leads us to look for the next safe or sure mate or job. Relationships nor jobs should be burdensome, when they are they drain us of energy and add undue stress and at times even physical ailments to our lives. I harp a lot on life being too short to live unhappily. Our lives should be lived with passion and purpose, and that often involves risk.

What better bet is there than to bet on yourself?

Faith is to believe in the unseen, so envision and then live your best life. For now, you may plan to work, but be planning to work your plan. Write it down, make a vision board, record your thoughts. Do what you have to now, so that you can do what you want to later. But whatever you do, don’t give up on your dreams and don’t lose your vision. If you can commit to working to the express benefit and betterment of someone else, why not channel those energies into a business idea for yourself.

We have so many talents that we leave on the back burner for the sake of being “responsible” and making sure money, it’s understandable, but again if it’s not making you happy or adding to your sense of peace of mind, it’s not worth it in the end.

Sometimes the only thing between you and success, is YOU! Stop blocking your growth and stop blocking your blessings.

Speak your prosperity and vision of success into the Universe and believe in the power of YOU!

~micaiah

Circle of life

The difference between life and death is literally breath!

In order to be blessed with the gift of life, you will at some point and time experience the pain of physical death. I say physical death because the spirit of a person lives far beyond the physical body is capable of.

Remember, life although a blessing does not always seem fair and likewise death does not discriminate taking old and young alike.

It’s hard not to question those things which you truly do not understand, it does not make you a bad person it makes you one that is hurting.

How you deal with death is a personal thing and likewise so is the grieving process.

No one can tell someone else how to grieve or what an acceptable grieving time frame should be.

Rather we have to understand that there are varying stages of grief and they are not always followed in a logical or sequential order.

Loss of life causes a gaping hole in the lives of those connected to the person.

We grieve not just the loss of life, but sometimes we lose purpose and connection that the person afforded us.

For those who have become caregivers of the deceased, we have to now find something to fill the free time we find ourselves with.

What do we do with ourselves when our days are no longer bombarded with caring for others, doctors appointments, cooking, cleaning and the like?

What happens when we are no longer busy, being busy?

That is usually the time when grief becomes real, after the memorials, funerals and family have all gone back to living their lives.

The grief can be enveloping and if you are not careful, all consuming. It can be the heaviest thing you have ever carried in your life and without a support system, it can overtake and overpower you.

Whether that support system is friends/family, spirituality or faith based, ground yourself in that support.

It’s easy to isolate yourself and feel as if no one else knows the pain of your loss and while all loss is individualized in how it affects you, there are many others that have felt the pain of loss in their lives.

I have learned through the many experiences I have had with death, those occurring naturally and even murder, ranging from miscarriage, childhood best friends, parents, sibling and other family members that the best way to honor a death is to keep or start living a purpose filled life.

Death, if nothing else, teaches us that time is limited and for some it is more limited than for others.

We must live each day with the determination to live our best life. It is the simplest way to honor the love, legacy and spirit of those that have gone before us.

Does that mean we won’t have days filled with tears or intermittent moments of sadness, of course not, emotions and the ability to express those feelings make us intimately more human.

But don’t drown in those depressed emotions, because life with all its twists and turns is a true gift and we must go on!

Time doesn’t truly erase all grief, but it does make it a lighter load to bear!

So brush off the happiest memory you can find from the recesses of your mind and clothe yourself in that memory.

Let the warmth of that moment envelope you and let the smile that it brings act as a light to illuminate all your darkest hours.

Go forth love, laugh and most of all LIVE!!

~micaiah

 

 

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