A friend of mine posted a picture by this amazing and talented artist ➡️ nettartanddesigns.com
and my creative juices went to work on a poem.
So check out the poem and more importantly check out his website above for amazing art work, paintings, illustrations and more…👨🏾🎨🎨
Nine whole months my mother nurtured me
thinking once I’m born I’d be free
but this country has a plan for me
they branded me with a target
and planted seeds subliminally
they start off by labeling me in school
it’s not in a child’s nature to sit still for hours
but they change the narrative because they hold the power
I can’t see myself pictured in any of the books unless it’s February or the images have labels of thugs and crooks
White washing history, not allowing images of our greatness before slavery to make their way to me
Inoculating my body and indoctrinating my mind
Then have the nerve to blame my parents for why I have no culture or pride
They poison the food
and set the mood for my down fall
dreams get shattered and scattered
across sidewalks littered with trash and filled with shadows
shadows of people meant to serve and protect
yet they look awful suspect, when killing someone based on the color or their skin
oh wait they fit a description once again?
freedom can only be used loosely
police step on necks where those nooses used to be
bullets end lives quicker
because the earth is so much sicker
so my brown eyes cry every day since my birth
knowing this cold world doesn’t see my worth.
Life is all about learning from experience’s, sometimes we are a little slow on the uptake and have to repeat a lesson.
We often allow our emotions to guide decisions that only our mind is truly qualified to make. I know it’s hard to let go of how you feel, even when you know it’s for your own best interest.
So you pray, praying steadfast to take that feeling away. And in time your prayers are answered only for you to turn around and be tested.
Do you hold firm? or do you fold to the tantalizing memory of the addictive high?
And if this one time you fold will whoever or whatever forever have a hold of you?
I say not necessarily, sometimes we have to experience something more than once to get the true lesson from it. Everyone has a different barometer by which to measure what they can and cannot tolerate. Maybe it took that second time to reach the peak of your limits.
Hell, it may take some people multiple times and guess what? That’s their business and their prerogative.
One thing life has taught me is not to judge the hearts and lives of others, because as soon as you say what you won’t do or what you won’t put up with the Almighty or Universe will surely test you.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve had enough tests to last several lifetimes already.
So be easy with yourself.
Now, I’m not saying settle for less than you deserve or to put up with abusive behavior. What I am saying is that ultimately it’s your life to live and you have to come to terms with what and who you allow in it and for how long.
Don’t base your life and limits by comparing it to another. Comparison is the thief of joy, do well to remember looks can be deceiving, because even salt can look like sugar.
So what looks sweet may not really be.
Trust grass grows greener wherever it’s tended to and watered. Effort proceeds progress.
So take those lessons on the chin and resolve yourself to let go of the past, grow your future and begin again as many times as you need to.
Sometimes it’s not the intimate aspect of the relationship you miss, it’s the friendship
The ability for someone to know you better than you know yourself
Someone that knows your moods and can communicate without conversation
someone that can pull a smile from you even when you are annoyingly aggravated
Someone you can be free with without judgment
Even when you’re afraid to uncover your heart, they feed you laughter as medicine and help cure your hidden and broken parts
Because sometimes we don’t truly heal, because we are so intent on not being able to feel
Sometimes we blur the line and it takes time to get back aligned with the true purpose for you and them
Maybe you were not ever meant to be in love
because the greater need is to be a friend
and in the end
in that realization
is where true happiness and healing begins.
This year has gone by rather quickly and has been filled with highs and lows. I’ve met a few goals and missed a few too. In 2019 I’m not tying myself down to unrealistic expectations or a list of goals. I’m resolving to be happy and what that looks like can change moment by moment but it all feels the same in my heart.
Maybe happiness is creating memories with friends and family, or taking the chance to step out and grab ahold of your dreams, maybe it’s quiet time reading a book or cuddling with your child. No matter what happiness looks like to you resolve to work hard in ensuring it for yourself.
Practice acts of self-love, be patient with yourself. Forgive yourself for unrealistic expectations you placed upon yourself. Believe in yourself. Have vision without boundaries over your life. Your life can be all encompassing it doesn’t have to be an either or existence.
Take control of your life and cherish and safeguard your joy. Don’t allow waves of negativity to overwhelm and overtake you. Life can only be lived day by day, so enjoy each moment as they come.
Resolve to be free of the expectations of others. Happiness and peace of mind have no specific size so don’t get caught up on things you have yet to change and focus on changing your perspective. Live your life in the way that allows you to reach the maximum potential of happiness and then repeat year after year!
I’ve been busy writing and being creative. I finally know how a butterfly feels to be bursting forth from a cocoon and ready to take flight. Something was laying dormant within me and is awakening.
I’m determined to go with this creative flow and not limit myself on where it may take me. Where the mind leads I will follow. As life continues I will glean information and add to the stories already living within my psyche.
As 2018, draws close to it’s end, I feel 2019 is the year of rebirth and of walking in my purpose. The year of flying free.
I’ve lost some special people through death and it’s made me more determined to make the days count and to push full speed ahead.
Sometimes there really is nothing to it, but to do it!
So let’s all do whatever it is and stop standing in our own way!