Sometimes it’s not the intimate aspect of the relationship you miss, it’s the friendship
The ability for someone to know you better than you know yourself
Someone that knows your moods and can communicate without conversation
someone that can pull a smile from you even when you are annoyingly aggravated
Someone you can be free with without judgment
Even when you’re afraid to uncover your heart, they feed you laughter as medicine and help cure your hidden and broken parts
Because sometimes we don’t truly heal, because we are so intent on not being able to feel
Sometimes we blur the line and it takes time to get back aligned with the true purpose for you and them
Maybe you were not ever meant to be in love
because the greater need is to be a friend
and in the end
in that realization
is where true happiness and healing begins.
This year has gone by rather quickly and has been filled with highs and lows. I’ve met a few goals and missed a few too. In 2019 I’m not tying myself down to unrealistic expectations or a list of goals. I’m resolving to be happy and what that looks like can change moment by moment but it all feels the same in my heart.
Maybe happiness is creating memories with friends and family, or taking the chance to step out and grab ahold of your dreams, maybe it’s quiet time reading a book or cuddling with your child. No matter what happiness looks like to you resolve to work hard in ensuring it for yourself.
Practice acts of self-love, be patient with yourself. Forgive yourself for unrealistic expectations you placed upon yourself. Believe in yourself. Have vision without boundaries over your life. Your life can be all encompassing it doesn’t have to be an either or existence.
Take control of your life and cherish and safeguard your joy. Don’t allow waves of negativity to overwhelm and overtake you. Life can only be lived day by day, so enjoy each moment as they come.
Resolve to be free of the expectations of others. Happiness and peace of mind have no specific size so don’t get caught up on things you have yet to change and focus on changing your perspective. Live your life in the way that allows you to reach the maximum potential of happiness and then repeat year after year!
I’ve been busy writing and being creative. I finally know how a butterfly feels to be bursting forth from a cocoon and ready to take flight. Something was laying dormant within me and is awakening.
I’m determined to go with this creative flow and not limit myself on where it may take me. Where the mind leads I will follow. As life continues I will glean information and add to the stories already living within my psyche.
As 2018, draws close to it’s end, I feel 2019 is the year of rebirth and of walking in my purpose. The year of flying free.
I’ve lost some special people through death and it’s made me more determined to make the days count and to push full speed ahead.
Sometimes there really is nothing to it, but to do it!
So let’s all do whatever it is and stop standing in our own way!