Tag: purpose

My own truth

Walking, no, more like stumbling through life
Vision blurred by all that’s occurred

Not staying on course has my dreams deferred
Allowed myself to lose focus
Due to foolishness and hocus pocus

Let comparison rob me of objectivity
had me forgetting about the blessings just for me

Doubt had me believing delayed had turned into denied
Had me trusting in worry and anxieties lies

Had to get regrounded and regroup
Had to familiarize myself again with my own truth

Had to remind myself of whose child I was
And that my gifts are truly a blessing from above

There is no timeframe or race
Just continue on and keep the pace

With renewed faith, my vision cleared
And once again I’m ready to tackle all I once feared.

~micaiah

Pushed to the edge

Today my Healthcare corporation encouraged us to participate in an 8 minute and 46 second moment of silence in honor of Mr. George Floyd and in solidarity with White Coats for Black Lives Matter (WCBL). WCBL is “an organization that strives to dismantle racism in medicine and promote the health, well-being, and self-determination of the African American community.”

During those 8 minutes and 46 seconds I couldn’t help but to think of all the things that must have flashed through Mr. Floyd’s mind, while seemingly coming to the stark realization that the police was literally killing him. I can’t even fathom what he must have been feeling and the helplessness of being rendered breathless.

I kept having that video of him being murdered, because that’s what it was, play over in a loop in my head. And of how tired I am of explaining to my 7 year old daughter that another person of color has lost their life at the hands of someone who sees them as less than, all while attempting to instill into her that she is enough.

It’s exhausting.

Racism in America, like a festering wound and abhorrent disease, has been left untreated since the nation was birthed. It’s a sickness that effects the young, old and all in between.
How can we tout this as the best nation on earth when animals get more respect and protection than people of color?

When will I not have to say extra prayers for all my male friends and family members that their lives are not taken during a simple traffic stop or interaction with the police.

Yes, we try to teach our youth how to act to stay alive, but until people stop placing symbolic bullseyes on their heads and back, hunting season continues in spite of being compliant.

All lives matter, but until Black Lives Matter there will be no peace because there won’t be any justice for us. Understand this country was founded on the backs of the people that they no longer deem matter, how hypocritical is that?

There are too many disparities in healthcare, education and the justice system for people to feel comfortable sticking their head in the sand and pretending to be unaware of what takes place around them. We know you see it, you show us with your silence that until it effects you directly you don’t care.

If you aren’t helping resolve the problems you may as well be throwing fire on the flames. You care if people mistreat their dog, yet act confounded that people would feel so strongly against the mistreatment of a whole collective group of people.
Surely, not a nation that state in God they trust! Do you not understand the same God you say you trust, created us.

When will enough, be enough for you? It’s past time for me.✊🏽🖤

~micaiah

Where happiness meets healing

Sometimes it’s not the intimate aspect of the relationship you miss, it’s the friendship

The ability for someone to know you better than you know yourself

Someone that knows your moods and can communicate without conversation

someone that can pull a smile from you even when you are annoyingly aggravated

Someone you can be free with without judgment

Even when you’re afraid to uncover your heart, they feed you laughter as medicine and help cure your hidden and broken parts

Because sometimes we don’t truly heal, because we are so intent on not being able to feel

Sometimes we blur the line and it takes time to get back aligned with the true purpose for you and them

Maybe you were not ever meant to be in love

because the greater need is to be a friend

and in the end

in that realization

is where true happiness and healing begins.

~micaiah

More Powerful than you Know

Sometimes it’s hard to inspire when you feel as if you’re floundering at life and your pockets are not filling fast enough.

But then again, those moments of uncertainty that turn out alright are what leads to inspiring moments and testimonies.

It’s easy to give up. To say, well it must not be my time since dreams aren’t aligning with finances.

Finances, or shall I say, the lack thereof, is a major stressor. Businesses and marriages have come to destruction over it.

But we can’t lose sight that sometimes riches aren’t monetary and sometimes blessings can’t be measured. 

Peace of mind and joy of heart are priceless. Doing something that fulfills you is invaluable to your self-worth, and shouldn’t be quantified on the basis of a dollar. 

That budget is meant to discipline you not confine or define your limits.

Sometimes you have to acknowledge that what you want is surpassing what you need.

We have to place things in perspective and understand that sometimes the only thing standing in your way of pursuing your dreams is being greedy for gain and forgetting to be thankful for more than enough.

Sometimes we have to be reminded that your dreams may be the life saving force someone else has been waiting for.

That book, that business, that apparel line may be the boost someone needs to be reminded that they too can realize their dreams.

That it’s never too late to pursue your purpose.

Don’t give up, you’re richer than you realize and more powerful than you know!

 ~Micaiah

Purpose filled

It’s easy to get discouraged when it appears that walking in your purpose is not at all how you envisioned. Whether that vision was connected to monetary gain, notoriety or a sense of comradery and solidarity with family, friends and peers, you may feel you have fallen short of the mark when you find yourself being a sole champion of your cause. I say keep pushing and keep pursuing your purpose.

Walking in your purpose is for you. It is a soul satisfying experience to do what you were called or created to do. It won’t always be recognized by others as noteworthy or great at first. I think that’s all apart of the soul evolution that one must go through. When you are doing what you are called to do it will bring you pleasure and a sense of fulfillment, even if that pleasure is not shared with the masses.

People at their best are often self-centered and talk more than they show. Meaning people will encourage you before you do whatever it may be, but often forget all about you while you pursue or do whatever it may be. They don’t want to see the process, they just want to claim to know you once you achieve success. Remember some people are intimidated by the mere confidence that you display by being bold enough to live in the truth of your authenticity.

Sometimes in order to transform your life, you must declutter your, life and get rid of all the things that will stop or slow the flow of positive, forward movement. Trust the process will culminate in progress, no matter how long it may take.

So, keep dreaming, envisioning, building, branding, writing, creating and walking head up and shoulders back into your purpose. It was destined for you and you will no doubt do it well. It doesn’t matter if the next person’s idea looks like yours, your personality and moral integrity and creative expression will set you light years apart from the others. Toyota didn’t stop making cars just because Ford was already in business, so don’t let imitators and naysayers block you, because they have no power to stop you.

All your dreams will indeed come true when you focus on achieving the life destined for you.

~micaiah

Creatively free

I’ve been busy writing and being creative. I finally know how a butterfly feels to be bursting forth from a cocoon and ready to take flight. Something was laying dormant within me and is awakening.

I’m determined to go with this creative flow and not limit myself on where it may take me. Where the mind leads I will follow. As life continues I will glean information and add to the stories already living within my psyche.

As 2018, draws close to it’s end, I feel 2019 is the year of rebirth and of walking in my purpose. The year of flying free.

I’ve lost some special people through death and it’s made me more determined to make the days count and to push full speed ahead.

Sometimes there really is nothing to it, but to do it!

So let’s all do whatever it is and stop standing in our own way!

~micaiah

 

Sparking the flame

Sometimes it’s hard to follow through on realizing a dream. Oftentimes for no other reason than we stand in our own way. We let the minor details overwhelm us into do nothingness. Instead of combating each small goal one step at a time. We get comfortable in the darkness and stop working towards the light.

 

This was a problem I battled. For years friends and acquaintances alike encouraged me to write a book, to get my words out there. And for years I hemmed and hawed and smiled saying I would or that I was working on it. Most of the time working on it meant I wrote down my goal and a few notes and then became overwhelmed at the thought and pushed it away. Until one day a sister-friend saw I needed a good shove off the ledge. She called and me and said, “Sis you have all the material already for a book. Copy and paste all those Facebook posts, print them out, categorize them and publish your book!” In other words, “Sis stop playing and make a move!” So, that’s exactly what I did.

 

My friend was the catalyst bearing clarity I needed to clearly see the steps and path I needed to take to reach my goal. Once that path was laid, it was nothing to complete. I had a book self-published so fast even I was in awe of myself. Luckily for me that fire is still burning and the urge to create is still there. So, I’m writing and blogging and creating, preparing for my next project or projects. I’m trying not to worry too much about sales and projections. I understand to finish big you must start small and I’m already claiming greater works and greater sales in my future endeavors.

 

That’s the thing about dreams, you must keep pushing and working on them. No matter what the outlook may look like. The adversary will try to trick you into believing your good wasn’t good enough, or that your best fell short. But I know that light flows out of darkness, the flame will spark, if you are patient and just keep pushing!

 

Refocus, reorganize, re-energize but don’t you dare quit!

~Micaiah

Reflecting on my blessing

November is my birth month and as I get ready to celebrate my 47th revolution around the sun on the 10th I sit back and think of what my life has been so far.

I must thank my parents, a bittersweet contemplation as they are both no longer on this earth with me. I continue to hold them in my heart and I pray I am a good representation of what they were both like as parents and individuals.

47 years and still so much I want to accomplish but I’ve learned that you can’t discount the little things in your life when counting blessings.

Sometimes we get caught up waiting for the “big blessings” and forget to be OK with having enough. There are so many people that do need have enough to meet their basic needs and yet we all get caught up in the vanity of our desires. But it’s here and now as I contemplate my life thus far that I make a conscious effort to be OK with enough. I know that more good things are destined for my life, but even if there weren’t I couldn’t complain because I’ve been greatly blessed. Blessed with a 2-parent home growing up, siblings, friends that became family, great school experiences, introduction to art and culture, self-identity, traveling outside my city and state, motherhood, skills, creative mind-set, nursing career and more. Phew! That’s a lot to be thankful for.

I also have come to realize how important it is to take the time to make the time. We often say we are too busy with life, family and work. But when you lose a loved one or friend and you reflect on all the missed moments that you were “too busy” you come to realize that you will make time and effort for things and people that are truly important. Love just can’t be spoken it has to be shown to truly be felt in its wholeness. There is no better feeling than true love, friendship and admiration. If someone crosses your mind call them or visit. Don’t rely on social media and allow it to replace the intimacy of human contact and interaction.

And although at times I think I should be much further in life than I am, I also understand I am exactly where I need to be, and I helped exactly who I needed to by being exactly where I am. So, I am appreciating and trusting the process.

I will continue to dream my dreams and chase my goals. I will take the time, to make the time for family and friends. I will laugh, love and live. Most of all I will be thankful for enough and remember that I am enough personified!

Remember to make the time between the dash count!

~Micaiah