Tag: life

Adrift and bereft

I haven’t written in a while. I was transitioning in my feelings from numb to grieving, once again death called a friend home and left me feeling adrift and bereft. Untethered just floating in a sea of feelings and unleashed emotions

Death is hard, but unexpected death, one not a result of some chronic or terminal illness is even harder; especially when it’s a best friend. A confidante and kindred spirit, someone that you laughingly joked about growing old with. It was surreal seeing her lifeless and so still. She had always been so lively and full of life. Her Aura would bring light to any room, but death robbed the world of her presence.

I’m a spiritual being so I know all souls belong to the Creator and are only on a short loan to those of us that live in this earthly world. Even knowing and understanding her latter end doesn’t make the pain any less intense.

Witnessing another mother bury her child is something I dread each and every time, because by nature I’m an empath and I feel things deeply and knowing I can do nothing to repair the hole left is gut wrenching. Of course I can offer help and sympathy but those things don’t touch that feeling that resides deep in one’s soul when they suffer the loss of someone close to them. I can’t begin to imagine what it feels like for a mother to lose the very person that grew inside her womb.

The older I get it seems the more prayers and condolences I extend, and yet the world keeps turning and days continue into night. And although death changes the world of those effected, the rest of the world goes on. And although at times you wish you could curl up in a ball and just forget about everything and everyone else, you can’t, because you still have life within you.

And because you inherently know you have a responsibility to keep the memory and love of the deceased alive. So you surf the waves of your grief, you allow yourself to feel, but you fight to keep your head above water because you don’t want to purposely hasten your own demise and be the cause of someone’s else’s grief.

The circle of life keeps turning much like the earth. We latch on to friends and family and every golden memory we can in an effort to establish a new normal.

That’s where I find myself, trying to find my new normal, without one of my best friend’s advice and input, one without her notes left in my library books on the hold shelf. A life that is without her text messages full of inside jokes and one that is without her book nerd humor and shared favorite authors and titles. One without her voice and knowing they’ll be no new songs sung it’s all still so hard to comprehend.

But I know she would push me forward and want me to accomplish all the goals and dreams we had discussed. She’d want to see me smile and laugh and enjoy life fully. So some way somehow I will, because to keep a smile on my face and joy in my heart may just be one of the best ways to remember her.

Missing you and loving you forever my friend

In Loving Memory of Hilakiyah Yisrael 3/10/1970-5/5/2019

~Micaiah

Boundless Visions: Unleashing the limitations in your mind

The science of mind is our ability to change our lives with the changing of our mindset. Words and thoughts hold power and we have the power to self-sabotage our happiness when we put unhealthy vibrations in the universe.

Sometimes we expect failure, although we put on the facade of believing in forever.

When we think failure, we do things without full effort and without full effort relationships become burdensome and disintegrate.  When we want success, we must think successfully. Affirm that what you want is what you will have. Claim it as truth and being present already. 

Energy is movement so when you focus your thoughts on positive things the universe works to place those things in motion for your good. But you must work towards them. Words without actions are dead.

Make your goals visible, this is one reason why vision boards are so powerful. They make goals real, tangible and obtainable. A visual reminder of where you need to focus your time and energy. They can be revised, as we reach new levels in self- awareness our goals and aspirations may change and that is an awesome and freeing thing.

The only limits in your life are the ones you set.

So, let your limits be boundless.

Speak and claim positivity and abundance in and on your life; invest in and sponsor your dreams. 

Voice your victories and speak prosperity into your life.

You have the power to live your best life.

No more fear, no more doubts, no more excuses.

Just do it!

~Micaiah

Next lifetime

You ever had someone speak to your very soul,

they looked into your eyes and your very thoughts they’d know?  


With just a mention of their name they send your heart a flutter,


and they make you feel inspired but  at the same time so nervous you stutter?


Someone who stimulates your mind,
taking intelligent and sexy to a whole different level and time,


but the sad part about it, it’s not the right time


For me to be yours and for you to be mine


and inherently you know
No matter how perfectly the stars seemed to align


you have to put off this soul connection
until the next lifetime.

~micaiah

Owning it

Since today marks the beginning of a new year by date, I’ve decided to write about owning up to your responsibilities and flaws. It doesn’t matter how many resolutions you make if you aren’t honest with and about yourself. You have to be able to look yourself in the mirror and understand that everything in your life is a direct result of either your actions or your inaction.

It’s true that as a man or woman thinketh so is he or she. If you think that you can’t go far in life due to all the set backs you may have encountered or due to being born into poverty and dysfunction, then 9 times out of 10 you won’t. You have to work towards what you want and you have to be committed to that vision mind, body and spirit. When you refuse to own the issues in your life, you take the responsibility away from yourself on how to solve and resolve them. You become a victim to your circumstances and allow others to determine your path, which is a definite no-no.

No one is perfect and even lives that may appear that way are generally far from it. Everyone has a backstory so to speak, a springing forth from the ashes moment. The difference is how you handle the backstory, do you hide it or do you use it as a tool to tell others your story and to motivate you into making new and improved changes in your life? Adults that choose to place their head in the sand and ignore their own part in the present state of their lives shouldn’t be surprised when they lack sympathy from others.

Life is 100% how you make it and adversity is how you take it. You have to start with the man or woman in the mirror and be the change you seek.

It’s your life, good, bad, or indifferent, Own IT!
~micaiah

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