The Love She Needed

She contemplated all her endings

In an effort to facilitate a new beginning

She couldn’t place all the blame on them

When the endings looked so similar

yet

she was the only common denominator

The commonality of her attractions was a flaw in her character

In her need to fix others

She attracted unhealed mates that flocked to her to be healed

Only to take their healed selves elsewhere

Leaving the fixer wounded

Momentarily put off from healing another

She covered her heart in armor

Daring anyone to penetrate her self imposed fortress

She was punishing herself

Not realizing a heart locked up finds it hard to beat

Even for oneself

So she tore the wall away

Because she realized she deserved her own best efforts

Her heart was resilient and destined to thrive, to love and be loved

She changed the inconsistent and conflicted parts within herself

She reflected the love she was

And was content to love herself

until someone came along

and reflected back to her

the love she needed.

~Micaiah

Owning it

Since today marks the beginning of a new year by date, I’ve decided to write about owning up to your responsibilities and flaws. It doesn’t matter how many resolutions you make if you aren’t honest with and about yourself. You have to be able to look yourself in the mirror and understand that everything in your life is a direct result of either your actions or your inaction.

It’s true that as a man or woman thinketh so is he or she. If you think that you can’t go far in life due to all the set backs you may have encountered or due to being born into poverty and dysfunction, then 9 times out of 10 you won’t. You have to work towards what you want and you have to be committed to that vision mind, body and spirit. When you refuse to own the issues in your life, you take the responsibility away from yourself on how to solve and resolve them. You become a victim to your circumstances and allow others to determine your path, which is a definite no-no.

No one is perfect and even lives that may appear that way are generally far from it. Everyone has a backstory so to speak, a springing forth from the ashes moment. The difference is how you handle the backstory, do you hide it or do you use it as a tool to tell others your story and to motivate you into making new and improved changes in your life? Adults that choose to place their head in the sand and ignore their own part in the present state of their lives shouldn’t be surprised when they lack sympathy from others.

Life is 100% how you make it and adversity is how you take it. You have to start with the man or woman in the mirror and be the change you seek.

It’s your life, good, bad, or indifferent, Own IT!
~micaiah