Tag: dreams

A Shortage of Sheep

It seems there must be a shortage on sheep, because I can’t find a single one to count myself to sleep.

It seems the older I become the more insomnia becomes my best friend.

The life and mind of a procrastinating creative, ha. I lie in bed thinking of all the things I could be doing, writing or creating, while at the same time doing nothing at all.

It’s the hamster wheel of thoughts that play in a loop that makes sleep seemingly impossible; yet you don’t want to rev up your engines too much because it’s counterproductive to becoming sleepy.

Are you just as frustrated reading this as I am feeling it?

Good, at least I’m not alone.

Melatonin only seems to work, when it’s time to wake up, then my body wants to relax and drift off into slumber. And yes, I’m aware that using electronics or blue light counteracts the Melatonin kicking in your natural circadian rhythm.

However, there’s only so much laying in the dark thinking about sleep I can do before my mind requires more.
It’s great when ideas come during the cloak of night, except when your alarm is set for 6 in the morning. Yet more often than not, my ideas strike at the most inopportune time. Instead of zzz’s, I have glowing embers from my thoughts and ideas.

Oh, how I envy my sister and daughter, who think the word sleep and then fall into blissful slumber as soon as their head hits the pillow. What type of sleep sorcery do they possess? I have yet to ascertain their magic formula. Nor is the sandman a friend of mine. The sandman tends to avoid me worse than a friend that owes you money they never plan to pay back.

Meditation works while I’m in the midst of it and then when the metaphorical tone sounds, denoting the end of the meditation, it never fails that my relaxed state ebbs away and I’m left to my thoughts, dreams and aspirations.

Reading doesn‘t work either, because I love to read and often have to force myself to put a book down and go to bed.

I guess I truly shouldn’t complain because being awake tonight did allow me to write this post, so maybe I should be thankful that just like Little Bo Peep, I’ve lost my sheep and don’t know where to find them. But I’m going to try real hard to wrangle up a few and catch a few zzz’s.

~Micaiah

Hello Nurse…

When I was younger I had so many different dreams and aspirations of what I’d be in life. For a while I dreamed of having a law firm with two of my other friends we would be Baker, Bean and Reid Associates at Law.

Funny, only one of us actually went into law; but another one did throw her hat in a political/policy influencing arena and sits on Oakland’s City Council.

I, on the other hand, had no long standing law affiliated aspirations. I decided pretty early I’d go into the medical field, early enough that I decided to take Latin to help me later with all the medical terminology I’d learn, and boy it truly came in handy. While others struggled I seemed to breeze right through medical terminology, so much so, I tutored and assisted the instructor during Pharmacology classes for my Licensed Practical Nurse program.

I started as a Home Health Aide then became certified as a State Tested Nursing Assistant. Let me just say nursing assistants are the backbone of health care especially long term care and they don’t get enough attention and appreciation.

It’s hard, sometimes back breaking work, yes they have way more tools and lifting equipment now than they had back in 1993 when I started out, but still it’s laborious work, if you truly care and give your residents the care they deserve.

I didn’t get into the medical field for the money, I got into it for the care and service to the people. I truly have a heart to help others be their best selves. Lots of people chose a career in nursing because it’s an honest and noble living and because they too wanted to help and serve others and it showed in the quality and type of care given to the residents and patients.

In recent years, it seems more are turning to nursing as an easier way to make decent money with a short amount of schooling required to start.

You can definitely tell the difference in the quality of the nurses that are being turned out now versus in the past.

Too many people don’t do it for the passion, they do it to floss and flex for the masses and in the end it’s our sick and vulnerable populations that suffer. This lack of true caring and consideration is what burns out the nurses that truly have a heart for the people and care.

It’s not the patients that really wear you out it’s the policies and politicking. It’s the cuts and poor management and out of touch Administration. It’s coworkers that don’t give as good as they get. It’s work being piled onto your good and dependable worker and no recompense for the bad apples on the team.

Somehow, nursing has to turn back into the passion filled career it once was and not just the lucrative field it’s turning into. The nation is capitalistic and I know this more than anyone, but we also have a world of people that are living longer but chronically sicker, so we have to get back into the act of honestly caring for their well-being.

I had some excellent role models for nurses.

We need more older nurses willing to invest in and mentor these younger nurses. We need nurses that don’t eat and alienate their young. We need advanced practice nurses that humble themselves and realize that initials and titles don’t automatically equate to great nurses, it goes beyond that to mindset, common sense and skill set.

Honestly, I know lots of LPNs that I would allow to care for me before some RN’s. We can’t forget the struggle just because we make it beyond it. We have to remember the humanity in nursing and our why behind becoming one.

Nursing has to get back to the art of care and compassion we were known for.

So, as we embark upon another Nursing Week, I implore you to do your part in keeping nursing a compassionate and honorable profession.

If not for the sick and infirm there would be no need for the nurse.

And as you care for others always remember it could be you or someone close to you on the other end of needing care.

~micaiah RN

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Your best life starts today!

Today, I want to impress upon you the importance of seizing the moment, stop waiting and make changes daily as you see the need for them. Time waits for no one and 2020 took many people with it whom died, what I feel was way too soon, some in the very beginning or prime of their lives. So be the change you want to see in your life.

Stop waiting to live your best life. Don’t put off tomorrow what you can do today. Release your fears and tap into your inner courage. Stop being complacent with convenience and mediocrity in your personal and professional life.

Surround yourself with friends and people that challenge you, to be a better you. Friends should be as iron that sharpens iron and act as mirrors to show us our real and true selves. Because the only way to effectively change yourself for the better is to take an honest inventory of yourself and your characteristics and act accordingly.

Realize and accept, that not everyone will be able to make the journey towards self-improvement with you, nor or they meant to. There is a time and purpose for everything and person under the sun, acknowledge when something or someone has outstayed their purpose in your life, release them/it and move on towards vaster and brighter horizons.

Understand that change may not be comfortable, but beautiful things are often birthed through adversity and pain.

Understand that there are dream makers and dream and idea takers, know your circle and know that some moves are not to be broadcast, but are best made in silence, allowing your work or action to speak for itself.

Most of all, forgive yourself of your short comings, what’s done is done and is now in the past. You can’t change the past so resolve to make better, more logically sound choices from this point on. The shame is not in the falling down; it’s being comfortable in staying down.

Tomorrow is never promised so make the most of your Today!

~Micaiah

My own truth

Walking, no, more like stumbling through life
Vision blurred by all that’s occurred

Not staying on course has my dreams deferred
Allowed myself to lose focus
Due to foolishness and hocus pocus

Let comparison rob me of objectivity
had me forgetting about the blessings just for me

Doubt had me believing delayed had turned into denied
Had me trusting in worry and anxieties lies

Had to get regrounded and regroup
Had to familiarize myself again with my own truth

Had to remind myself of whose child I was
And that my gifts are truly a blessing from above

There is no timeframe or race
Just continue on and keep the pace

With renewed faith, my vision cleared
And once again I’m ready to tackle all I once feared.

~micaiah

More Powerful than you Know

Sometimes it’s hard to inspire when you feel as if you’re floundering at life and your pockets are not filling fast enough.

But then again, those moments of uncertainty that turn out alright are what leads to inspiring moments and testimonies.

It’s easy to give up. To say, well it must not be my time since dreams aren’t aligning with finances.

Finances, or shall I say, the lack thereof, is a major stressor. Businesses and marriages have come to destruction over it.

But we can’t lose sight that sometimes riches aren’t monetary and sometimes blessings can’t be measured. 

Peace of mind and joy of heart are priceless. Doing something that fulfills you is invaluable to your self-worth, and shouldn’t be quantified on the basis of a dollar. 

That budget is meant to discipline you not confine or define your limits.

Sometimes you have to acknowledge that what you want is surpassing what you need.

We have to place things in perspective and understand that sometimes the only thing standing in your way of pursuing your dreams is being greedy for gain and forgetting to be thankful for more than enough.

Sometimes we have to be reminded that your dreams may be the life saving force someone else has been waiting for.

That book, that business, that apparel line may be the boost someone needs to be reminded that they too can realize their dreams.

That it’s never too late to pursue your purpose.

Don’t give up, you’re richer than you realize and more powerful than you know!

 ~Micaiah

Kisses like Wishes

Kisses like wishes

That make dreams come true

Drawing smiley faces on papers

Lost in thoughts of you

I see traces of you and I expressed

Vicariously through watching the love of others

As I wonder how many more minutes

Before we are entrenched in the heat

And scent of one another

I wear the essence of you like perfume

It’s the sweetest of smells to me

It’s an unspoken testament of

your promise to be there for me

As you split my thighs like the Red Sea

Performed miracles to win my heart from me

Our bodies touched and souls knew

That there would never be another who’d do

The things that we do to one another

Too holy to be voodoo

Yet unholy enough to make us blush at the memories

Of just how open we are for one another

You breathed life in me and I exhaled the stress out of you

As we created a mystic language entangled in arms and legs

Exchanging energies

We don’t lose

it’s a reciprocal cycle of charging you

and you in turn recharging me

Kisses like wishes

Forever lost in thoughts of you.

~Micaiah

Purpose filled

It’s easy to get discouraged when it appears that walking in your purpose is not at all how you envisioned. Whether that vision was connected to monetary gain, notoriety or a sense of comradery and solidarity with family, friends and peers, you may feel you have fallen short of the mark when you find yourself being a sole champion of your cause. I say keep pushing and keep pursuing your purpose.

Walking in your purpose is for you. It is a soul satisfying experience to do what you were called or created to do. It won’t always be recognized by others as noteworthy or great at first. I think that’s all apart of the soul evolution that one must go through. When you are doing what you are called to do it will bring you pleasure and a sense of fulfillment, even if that pleasure is not shared with the masses.

People at their best are often self-centered and talk more than they show. Meaning people will encourage you before you do whatever it may be, but often forget all about you while you pursue or do whatever it may be. They don’t want to see the process, they just want to claim to know you once you achieve success. Remember some people are intimidated by the mere confidence that you display by being bold enough to live in the truth of your authenticity.

Sometimes in order to transform your life, you must declutter your, life and get rid of all the things that will stop or slow the flow of positive, forward movement. Trust the process will culminate in progress, no matter how long it may take.

So, keep dreaming, envisioning, building, branding, writing, creating and walking head up and shoulders back into your purpose. It was destined for you and you will no doubt do it well. It doesn’t matter if the next person’s idea looks like yours, your personality and moral integrity and creative expression will set you light years apart from the others. Toyota didn’t stop making cars just because Ford was already in business, so don’t let imitators and naysayers block you, because they have no power to stop you.

All your dreams will indeed come true when you focus on achieving the life destined for you.

~micaiah

Creative Season

For so many years I would put off writing a book or I would start a blog only to stop shortly after. But this past October with the help and push from a sister-friend I finally made good on my word to publish a book. The surprising part was once I wrote the plan and acted upon it, it took literally no time at all to put the book out there. It’s kind of sad when I think of all the years, I wasted procrastinating. I could have been perfecting my skills and been on my way to a best seller by now. But then I had to think that everything works in its appointed time. We may not understand the big picture, but we must learn to adapt to it.

Now that its my creative season, ideas and stories are coming to me from several directions and I’ve been writing, planning and creating. And that’s all while still working a full-time job, homeschooling my daughter and being her mom, playmate, principal and everything in between. I love it though. I finally feel like I am working towards my purpose. I am getting my words out there.

So, what if I’m not on the best sellers list yet! It’s a wonderful feeling when people inbox or text you that your words made an impact on them even in a small way. I’m finally working on my dream daily and not just telling people I will one day.

I’m just thankful for friends that have the spirit of discernment and pushed me into my now! Sometimes you must get out there and start doing and when you do, its like a domino effect and things just start falling together.

I haven’t felt this creative since my early days at The School for The Creative and Performing Arts. Its nice to know the gift was lying dormant just waiting for me to pick up my pen and start writing again.

This time I may take short breaks but I’m no longer willing to quit!

~micaiah

Sparking the flame

Sometimes it’s hard to follow through on realizing a dream. Oftentimes for no other reason than we stand in our own way. We let the minor details overwhelm us into do nothingness. Instead of combating each small goal one step at a time. We get comfortable in the darkness and stop working towards the light.

 

This was a problem I battled. For years friends and acquaintances alike encouraged me to write a book, to get my words out there. And for years I hemmed and hawed and smiled saying I would or that I was working on it. Most of the time working on it meant I wrote down my goal and a few notes and then became overwhelmed at the thought and pushed it away. Until one day a sister-friend saw I needed a good shove off the ledge. She called and me and said, “Sis you have all the material already for a book. Copy and paste all those Facebook posts, print them out, categorize them and publish your book!” In other words, “Sis stop playing and make a move!” So, that’s exactly what I did.

 

My friend was the catalyst bearing clarity I needed to clearly see the steps and path I needed to take to reach my goal. Once that path was laid, it was nothing to complete. I had a book self-published so fast even I was in awe of myself. Luckily for me that fire is still burning and the urge to create is still there. So, I’m writing and blogging and creating, preparing for my next project or projects. I’m trying not to worry too much about sales and projections. I understand to finish big you must start small and I’m already claiming greater works and greater sales in my future endeavors.

 

That’s the thing about dreams, you must keep pushing and working on them. No matter what the outlook may look like. The adversary will try to trick you into believing your good wasn’t good enough, or that your best fell short. But I know that light flows out of darkness, the flame will spark, if you are patient and just keep pushing!

 

Refocus, reorganize, re-energize but don’t you dare quit!

~Micaiah

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