A Shortage of Sheep

It seems there must be a shortage on sheep, because I can’t find a single one to count myself to sleep.

It seems the older I become the more insomnia becomes my best friend.

The life and mind of a procrastinating creative, ha. I lie in bed thinking of all the things I could be doing, writing or creating, while at the same time doing nothing at all.

It’s the hamster wheel of thoughts that play in a loop that makes sleep seemingly impossible; yet you don’t want to rev up your engines too much because it’s counterproductive to becoming sleepy.

Are you just as frustrated reading this as I am feeling it?

Good, at least I’m not alone.

Melatonin only seems to work, when it’s time to wake up, then my body wants to relax and drift off into slumber. And yes, I’m aware that using electronics or blue light counteracts the Melatonin kicking in your natural circadian rhythm.

However, there’s only so much laying in the dark thinking about sleep I can do before my mind requires more.
It’s great when ideas come during the cloak of night, except when your alarm is set for 6 in the morning. Yet more often than not, my ideas strike at the most inopportune time. Instead of zzz’s, I have glowing embers from my thoughts and ideas.

Oh, how I envy my sister and daughter, who think the word sleep and then fall into blissful slumber as soon as their head hits the pillow. What type of sleep sorcery do they possess? I have yet to ascertain their magic formula. Nor is the sandman a friend of mine. The sandman tends to avoid me worse than a friend that owes you money they never plan to pay back.

Meditation works while I’m in the midst of it and then when the metaphorical tone sounds, denoting the end of the meditation, it never fails that my relaxed state ebbs away and I’m left to my thoughts, dreams and aspirations.

Reading doesn‘t work either, because I love to read and often have to force myself to put a book down and go to bed.

I guess I truly shouldn’t complain because being awake tonight did allow me to write this post, so maybe I should be thankful that just like Little Bo Peep, I’ve lost my sheep and don’t know where to find them. But I’m going to try real hard to wrangle up a few and catch a few zzz’s.

~Micaiah

Divine Conversations

Restless nights

the tired body

of an overworked mind

racing thoughts

subconscious longings

alone in bed

ideas take root in my head

clarity comes

revealing itself slowly

like a dawn breaking the horizon

when slumber is fleeting

I obtain the peace I seek

‘fore if I quiet my mind

and listen closely

I hear God speak

~micaiah

Whose toes are those?

Many of us have heard the saying, “Be careful, the toes you step on today may be connected to the ass you may have to kiss tomorrow.” How many of us have taken the time to ponder the meaning of this saying? Let me say, not many. So many people are concerned with getting ahead than they are about integrity and honor.

Some people will sell their soul for a chance at success, forgetting those that held them down when the going was rough. Throwing people under the bus all for the chance of going nowhere fast. Stealing concepts and connections, reworking other people’s ideas to aid in their deception.

There is no honor amongst thieves, dream snatchers definitely apply. Dream snatchers are those people dressed up like friends, but plotting like enemies, also known as frenemies. Those people that enter your circle intending to grab and go, grab your ideas, and go make a name for themselves. We’ve all experienced this on some level.

Whether it’s the co-worker taking all the credit for your idea or a friend that runs off with your dream and attempts to make it their own, the hurt and betrayal feel the same. Those types of people rarely prosper in the long run because they don’t have the mental acumen needed for staying power. And the truth is even if someone takes the premise of your idea, they can’t take what is meant for you. Someone can’t fully birth a vision in all its magnificent glory if the vision was not given to them.

Sometimes the true blessing is in the lesson. It’s in teaching us who to entrust with our secrets and about speaking up for ourselves. Asserting our worth and claiming our work. Taking the steps to protect yourself:

  1. If you have a business idea, stop talking about and be about it.
  2. If you want to share ideas, have them sign a confidentiality clause.
  3. Trademark your brand and your personalized sayings before sharing them.
  4. Keep your circle small.
  5. Network with others with established businesses.

Stop looking to others for validation and affirmation to follow your dreams. Know that it’s ok to ask for support and prayers and be vague why they are needed, some people don’t need full disclosure because they don’t want it to be helpful, they want to be nosey. In fact, the most genuine of people are praying for you before you ever even ask.

Ideas are often like outfits; they look different on other people. Just because someone takes your idea doesn’t mean they will present it like you. They may not have the contacts you have, the drive you have, the spirit you have or the blessings you have. What is meant for you will be FOR YOU!

Tell those toe crushers you’re rocking steel-toed boots, so they must come better than that!~ Micaiah

Creative Season

For so many years I would put off writing a book or I would start a blog only to stop shortly after. But this past October with the help and push from a sister-friend I finally made good on my word to publish a book. The surprising part was once I wrote the plan and acted upon it, it took literally no time at all to put the book out there. It’s kind of sad when I think of all the years, I wasted procrastinating. I could have been perfecting my skills and been on my way to a best seller by now. But then I had to think that everything works in its appointed time. We may not understand the big picture, but we must learn to adapt to it.

Now that its my creative season, ideas and stories are coming to me from several directions and I’ve been writing, planning and creating. And that’s all while still working a full-time job, homeschooling my daughter and being her mom, playmate, principal and everything in between. I love it though. I finally feel like I am working towards my purpose. I am getting my words out there.

So, what if I’m not on the best sellers list yet! It’s a wonderful feeling when people inbox or text you that your words made an impact on them even in a small way. I’m finally working on my dream daily and not just telling people I will one day.

I’m just thankful for friends that have the spirit of discernment and pushed me into my now! Sometimes you must get out there and start doing and when you do, its like a domino effect and things just start falling together.

I haven’t felt this creative since my early days at The School for The Creative and Performing Arts. Its nice to know the gift was lying dormant just waiting for me to pick up my pen and start writing again.

This time I may take short breaks but I’m no longer willing to quit!

~micaiah

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