Author: MYD-Dreams

Micaiah Yhisrael is an author out of Cincinnati, OH. with a variety of writing genre’s and interests. Her love for reading and writing grew and flourished at an early age. Micaiah is a nurse by trade and a writer at heart. She’s a multi-faceted individual and it shows in the variety of works she is involved in. Book subjects range from inspirational, motivational, children’s empowerment to urban fiction and beyond. Micaiah’s creative flow and energy is at work, creating thoughtful and provoking stories. She can be found on social media including: Pinterest, Instagram and Twitter as MYD_Dreams. You can also find her sharing her tidbits of wisdom, known as Micaiahism’s, on Facebook as: MY-D Dreams.

Adrift and bereft

I haven’t written in a while. I was transitioning in my feelings from numb to grieving, once again death called a friend home and left me feeling adrift and bereft. Untethered just floating in a sea of feelings and unleashed emotions

Death is hard, but unexpected death, one not a result of some chronic or terminal illness is even harder; especially when it’s a best friend. A confidante and kindred spirit, someone that you laughingly joked about growing old with. It was surreal seeing her lifeless and so still. She had always been so lively and full of life. Her Aura would bring light to any room, but death robbed the world of her presence.

I’m a spiritual being so I know all souls belong to the Creator and are only on a short loan to those of us that live in this earthly world. Even knowing and understanding her latter end doesn’t make the pain any less intense.

Witnessing another mother bury her child is something I dread each and every time, because by nature I’m an empath and I feel things deeply and knowing I can do nothing to repair the hole left is gut wrenching. Of course I can offer help and sympathy but those things don’t touch that feeling that resides deep in one’s soul when they suffer the loss of someone close to them. I can’t begin to imagine what it feels like for a mother to lose the very person that grew inside her womb.

The older I get it seems the more prayers and condolences I extend, and yet the world keeps turning and days continue into night. And although death changes the world of those effected, the rest of the world goes on. And although at times you wish you could curl up in a ball and just forget about everything and everyone else, you can’t, because you still have life within you.

And because you inherently know you have a responsibility to keep the memory and love of the deceased alive. So you surf the waves of your grief, you allow yourself to feel, but you fight to keep your head above water because you don’t want to purposely hasten your own demise and be the cause of someone’s else’s grief.

The circle of life keeps turning much like the earth. We latch on to friends and family and every golden memory we can in an effort to establish a new normal.

That’s where I find myself, trying to find my new normal, without one of my best friend’s advice and input, one without her notes left in my library books on the hold shelf. A life that is without her text messages full of inside jokes and one that is without her book nerd humor and shared favorite authors and titles. One without her voice and knowing they’ll be no new songs sung it’s all still so hard to comprehend.

But I know she would push me forward and want me to accomplish all the goals and dreams we had discussed. She’d want to see me smile and laugh and enjoy life fully. So some way somehow I will, because to keep a smile on my face and joy in my heart may just be one of the best ways to remember her.

Missing you and loving you forever my friend

In Loving Memory of Hilakiyah Yisrael 3/10/1970-5/5/2019

~Micaiah

The Love She Needed

She contemplated all her endings

In an effort to facilitate a new beginning

She couldn’t place all the blame on them

When the endings looked so similar

yet

she was the only common denominator

The commonality of her attractions was a flaw in her character

In her need to fix others

She attracted unhealed mates that flocked to her to be healed

Only to take their healed selves elsewhere

Leaving the fixer wounded

Momentarily put off from healing another

She covered her heart in armor

Daring anyone to penetrate her self imposed fortress

She was punishing herself

Not realizing a heart locked up finds it hard to beat

Even for oneself

So she tore the wall away

Because she realized she deserved her own best efforts

Her heart was resilient and destined to thrive, to love and be loved

She changed the inconsistent and conflicted parts within herself

She reflected the love she was

And was content to love herself

until someone came along

and reflected back to her

the love she needed.

~Micaiah

Reflections of You

Take care of you; it’s the most loving thing you can do for yourself.

Despite your best efforts to always be the generous, caring, kind hearted, help everyone else out type of person.

It’s easy to become bitter after life continuously throws you lemons.

and

It’s much harder to be the bigger person in an argument, especially when it’s a clear matter of right versus wrong.

It’s easier to give in to the desires of the flesh even though you know it’s not truly worth the time and effort but sometimes the lure of instant gratification seems to look so much more tantalizing than years of a strict commitment and steadfast resolve.

But peace of mind and the ability to sleep with a clear conscience is priceless.

Energy is transferable and you have to watch the company you keep and the thoughts you keep as well.

Your thoughts have the ability to drive your actions, even subconsciously.

That’s why it’s vital to spend time in reflective thought and meditation.

To help ground and recenter yourself when life attempts to knock you off your axis

You have to find your center, your grounding force that keeps you tethered on the path towards success and fulfillment.

But more importantly tethered to the path towards happiness, inner peace and joy.

Far too often, we allow the actions or inaction of others to alter our emotions.

Good people get tired of not having their efforts reciprocated, but we can’t allow outside forces to change our inside core.

We have to take time for self-care, to recharge and replenish.

Ultimately, you are responsible for your own happiness and for protecting your peace of mind.

Take the time to show yourself loving care, practice daily affirming words or phrases.

Become comfortable saying no to people and situations that are a threat to your energy and or your happiness or peace of mind and do not allow guilt to creep in.

Self-preservation is a necessary part in maintaining your mental health.

Understand your own limits and triggers and don’t be afraid to express yourself and what you need.

You may love or interact with innumerable people over the course of your life, but the person that matters the most is the one you face in the mirror.

Take care of the person you see reflected there.

You matter!

~ Micaiah

Whose toes are those?

Many of us have heard the saying, “Be careful, the toes you step on today may be connected to the ass you may have to kiss tomorrow.” How many of us have taken the time to ponder the meaning of this saying? Let me say, not many. So many people are concerned with getting ahead than they are about integrity and honor.

Some people will sell their soul for a chance at success, forgetting those that held them down when the going was rough. Throwing people under the bus all for the chance of going nowhere fast. Stealing concepts and connections, reworking other people’s ideas to aid in their deception.

There is no honor amongst thieves, dream snatchers definitely apply. Dream snatchers are those people dressed up like friends, but plotting like enemies, also known as frenemies. Those people that enter your circle intending to grab and go, grab your ideas, and go make a name for themselves. We’ve all experienced this on some level.

Whether it’s the co-worker taking all the credit for your idea or a friend that runs off with your dream and attempts to make it their own, the hurt and betrayal feel the same. Those types of people rarely prosper in the long run because they don’t have the mental acumen needed for staying power. And the truth is even if someone takes the premise of your idea, they can’t take what is meant for you. Someone can’t fully birth a vision in all its magnificent glory if the vision was not given to them.

Sometimes the true blessing is in the lesson. It’s in teaching us who to entrust with our secrets and about speaking up for ourselves. Asserting our worth and claiming our work. Taking the steps to protect yourself:

  1. If you have a business idea, stop talking about and be about it.
  2. If you want to share ideas, have them sign a confidentiality clause.
  3. Trademark your brand and your personalized sayings before sharing them.
  4. Keep your circle small.
  5. Network with others with established businesses.

Stop looking to others for validation and affirmation to follow your dreams. Know that it’s ok to ask for support and prayers and be vague why they are needed, some people don’t need full disclosure because they don’t want it to be helpful, they want to be nosey. In fact, the most genuine of people are praying for you before you ever even ask.

Ideas are often like outfits; they look different on other people. Just because someone takes your idea doesn’t mean they will present it like you. They may not have the contacts you have, the drive you have, the spirit you have or the blessings you have. What is meant for you will be FOR YOU!

Tell those toe crushers you’re rocking steel-toed boots, so they must come better than that!~ Micaiah

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