never can say good bye
even after a year it still seems foreign to try
I remember being awakened from my sleep
to cries that you were now resting in peace
for a second I lost touch with reality
Could this really be true
but I soon gained more proof
the world had truly lost you
it’s hard living life with no more talks
no more shared books read
or inside jokes
I just knew we’d grow to be old folks
You were my sister, my friend and a spiritual sharpener
when your soul left
time seemed to stand still
it felt surreal
I was bereft
left fumbling to rationalize within my mind,
to accept this loss as a truth
There are days I’m great
and there’s days when simply I’m not
I know life is for living so I keep pushing I dare not stop
There is so much more I needed to share
so much more wisdom and encouragement I needed to hear
You were a sister-friend so near and dear to my heart.
I carry your memories forever with me may they never depart.
~micaiah
Continue to rest in power Sis💙
Hilakiyah Yisrael 3/10/70-5/5/2019
Whenever anyone dies, it’s a humbling moment to remind us all of our mortality. No matter how we live or our socioeconomic backgrounds, we all have an expiration date.
Whether you believe in a higher power or not doesn’t negate the certainty of death.
The recent unexpected and tragic death of Kobe Bryant along with 8 other individuals rocked many.
Unexpected deaths are always hard, because there is no time to prepare or guard your emotions.
Now that I’m in my late forties and both my parents and several close friends have passed, it’s hard not to get caught up in an avalanche of grief and tears when hearing about the death of others.
It’s as if the grief of others, stirs up a hornets nest of emotions within me and I know from reading other peoples social media posts and comments that I’m not alone in those feelings.
I honestly have to force myself to limit time on social media as it can become too heavy a burden to bear. Energy no matter the source, can be transferred.
It’s important to take time for self care and to regroup after tragic events or the death of others.
It’s easy to allow the darkness and cloak of depression to envelop you into a false sense of comfort.
Don’t be fooled, your light is not out. The flame may have flickered, but as long as you have breath that light still shines.
So, I’ve committed to living more intentionally.
To appreciate the days and make them count.
To create new and lasting memories.
To live, laugh and love and show appreciation for all those in my life.
To let go of the small stuff and focus on the bigger picture.
I’ve committed to be a better version of myself and live each day to the fullest, because we never know when it will be our last.
~Micaiah
I wish I didn’t know…
that one day every living thing must one day go
back to the dust from which it came.
I wish I didn’t know…
that sometimes people don’t get healed
and pain unleashed reveals itself in an avalanche of tears.
I wish I didn’t know…
That cancer is a monster and not just a sign of the zodiac
it doesn’t respect persons old or young and runs you ragged and tortures you before it’s done.
I wish I didn’t know…
friendships don’t always last until you grow old
sometimes death severs it’s hold.
I wish I didn’t know…
Life will give you bitter with the sweet
and bad things sometimes happens to the good folks you meet.
I wish I didn’t know…
That grief can last forever, it’s coping mechanisms that change
When you lose someone you love,
life is never quite the same.
I wish I didn’t know.
~micaiah
MYD Dreams 